just a piece of me

"I am sick of being rejected...

I am sick of being refused.....

I am sick of being betrayed........

and...

I am sick of betraying, hurting and lying....."



several minutes ago, I had a thought about being a single parent. A parent who is strong enough to raise a baby girl himself.... this idea popped out when I had a flash-back.. well.. ok... my familly is not a happy one... it is a broken one... say that I am afraid to start one because I have a trauma with the current one.... however... logically, I think that why do we have to bother ourselves tied in a marriage if it will be ended with one single word that I hate most... DIVORCEMENT ??

SO... DO NOT BOTHER TO GET MARRIED.......

I dreamed to have a baby girl and raise it herself without a mother figure... perhaps what my friend told me was right... she said she is ready to be a mother but not a wife... It means that... she is ready to raise a kid without being in a relationship...

seems like it happens to me as well.... I might be ready to raise a kid but not to have a relationship (a marriage in this case)

then.. I think I just need to focus on my study.. do the best.. get a job... being promoted... and finally... adopt a kid.... a girl would be nice :)

AAAAAAAAAAAAND... IT'S GONE

eeeeaaaa.... IT'S GONE.....

akun twiter yang udah kepake setahun akhinya... LENYAP..... yasudahlah... new account new life.... :D

berawal dari DM yang berbunyi "someone post something bad about you" dan berlanjut ke RE-LOG IN account, aku dengan BEGOnya re-log in...

24 jam pertama nggak kenapa-kenapa... eh nggak taunya... tadi pagi abis nyalain blacky mau cek what's on... NGGAK BISA KEBUKA pemirsaaa.... SHIT.... wkwkkwkwkwkw......


HOWEVER.....


di Alice masih tersambung akun lama twiter aku... si @rachwono09 walhasil... yasudah... aku sekalian kampanye dari Alice... woro-woro kalo si @rachwono09 udah nggak kepake dan aku pindah ke @dasamuko90 dengan e-mail baru yrachwono@yahoo.com... :D :D