just a piece of me

"I am sick of being rejected...

I am sick of being refused.....

I am sick of being betrayed........

and...

I am sick of betraying, hurting and lying....."



several minutes ago, I had a thought about being a single parent. A parent who is strong enough to raise a baby girl himself.... this idea popped out when I had a flash-back.. well.. ok... my familly is not a happy one... it is a broken one... say that I am afraid to start one because I have a trauma with the current one.... however... logically, I think that why do we have to bother ourselves tied in a marriage if it will be ended with one single word that I hate most... DIVORCEMENT ??

SO... DO NOT BOTHER TO GET MARRIED.......

I dreamed to have a baby girl and raise it herself without a mother figure... perhaps what my friend told me was right... she said she is ready to be a mother but not a wife... It means that... she is ready to raise a kid without being in a relationship...

seems like it happens to me as well.... I might be ready to raise a kid but not to have a relationship (a marriage in this case)

then.. I think I just need to focus on my study.. do the best.. get a job... being promoted... and finally... adopt a kid.... a girl would be nice :)

AAAAAAAAAAAAND... IT'S GONE

eeeeaaaa.... IT'S GONE.....

akun twiter yang udah kepake setahun akhinya... LENYAP..... yasudahlah... new account new life.... :D

berawal dari DM yang berbunyi "someone post something bad about you" dan berlanjut ke RE-LOG IN account, aku dengan BEGOnya re-log in...

24 jam pertama nggak kenapa-kenapa... eh nggak taunya... tadi pagi abis nyalain blacky mau cek what's on... NGGAK BISA KEBUKA pemirsaaa.... SHIT.... wkwkkwkwkwkw......


HOWEVER.....


di Alice masih tersambung akun lama twiter aku... si @rachwono09 walhasil... yasudah... aku sekalian kampanye dari Alice... woro-woro kalo si @rachwono09 udah nggak kepake dan aku pindah ke @dasamuko90 dengan e-mail baru yrachwono@yahoo.com... :D :D

POKOKNYA HARUS BEGITU !!

IRI....... asli IRI....

itu yang aku bilang dalam hati pas lihat orang-orang pamer body di panggung... wkwkwkkwkw.... OK IT SOUNDS GAY... G-A-Y.... but SCREW... aku emang IRI lihatnya... mupeng pake BANGET buat punya badan kayak gitu.... tapi yaaaa... sudahlah.. semua pakek proses kok... cepat atau lambat ya nanti badan aku jadi begitu juga kok... EVEN BETTER (IT'S A MUST) :D


hmm....

PUMP oh PUMP

Ini anak-anak apaan sih?! HEH MESIN PUMP itu punya UMUM bukan punya moyang kamu...

okay, mungkin terdengar kasar tapi... MEREKA ITU NGGAK TAU DIRI... seriusan... buat naik darah aja...

tapi.. untungnya tadi abis mereka liat aku maen dengan muka "BITCH MY GRANNY CAN PUMP BETTER THAN YOU" ada orang L-U-C-U (dibaca: aku) maen di pad samping aku... well... maennya sih ok.. tapi kok jatoh-jatohnya malah FLIRTING aku sih?! HELL-O heh... situ maen bawa "ANJING" so nggak pake acara flirting aku ya?! PELIS..... wkwkwkkwkwkwkw......

jadi kayak hidden agenda gitu malahan... ini orang masak nge-pump sambil ngobrol?! heh... kalo situ nggak bawa anjing okelah kita ngobrol kalo perlu sampe pindah di Food Court.. nggak apa-apa... sumpah nggak apa-apa.... RELAAAAA..... wkwkkwkwkw....

Putih, mancung, tinggi.... well.... tapi ANJINGMU ilooo... buat GWILOOO.... wkwkwkwk... MERDEKA...

OUCH it hurts

Kemaren Selasa iseng jogging dengan track normal (Kos-Ijen-Tugu-Splendid-KayuTangan-Kos) tapi kok malah belok ke Stadion gajayana... walhasil ketemu sama anak-anak IKASI Malang... :D

Well... singkat cerita karena pengen kardio, jadilah aku ikutan routine mereka.... lari keliling stadion 10x dll... eh terus malah lanjut ke latihan Anggarnya... wkwkkwwkwk (mateng oen) agak2 lupa juga sih gerakannya tapi yasudahlah.....

Itu latihan..... HMMMH OEENN..... pokoknya MERDEKAA... kebayang posisi anggar gimana?? yeps... begitu terus jongkok... eits.. itu baru jongkok bediri... lepas itu.... wkwkwkwkwkwk.... POSISI ANGGAR JONGKOK LOMPAT.... dan masih banyak lagi.... NOTE: INI BARU WARMING UP lo ya....

Masuk sesi latihan inti, aku akhirnya pegang pedang lagi.... waaaaaaa o.O.... berasa ZORRO gituuu :3 wkkwkwkwkwk.... pegang Deigen... maju formasi 2-1-2 (2maju serang, 1mundur sambil tangkis pedang, 2maju serang)

DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN...... akhirnya.... my lower parts HURT..... macam mau putus... tapi yasudah lah.... kangen juga anyway jadi ZORRO....

Bon, C'est la vie.... EN GARDE !!!

Gantengan mana??

Wkwkwkwkw.... pengen ketawa aja liat gambar ini... wkwkw... papan gambar dengan orang yang disampingnya MIRIP (gantengan orangnya sih) wkwkwkkw....